"One year from now, I will write again, and we will see what my dreams are that day, June 21st, 2009, and whether they've progressed or changed."
Wrote that one year and one day ago.. funny how it was today I decided to look through my posts and find that entry again. I had been thinking about it for the past few days, about what I said in that entry about dreams.. fighting for your dreams, how your dreams today may not be the same 1, 5, 10 years from now. and it so happened that tonight, at 3AM again, I'm revisiting that post. it's kind of scary how that all came together, either purely a strange coincidence or as if "it was written." (stupid Jai Ho stuck in my head, thanks to Arthur putting the song on in the car).
anyway, my dreams of becoming a film editor remain intact. strengthened, if anything. Now that I'm free from the UCLA undergraduate world, I feel like my life has finally begun - I'm free to explore the world away from the college bubble, get out there, and do some real work. All the opportunities I had at school were nice, but now it's time to produce real-world work. And that excites me. I think I've already gone beyond "just a hobby," something I had set out to prove one year ago.. during the last 2 weeks of school I really felt like I could do this at a professional level someday - like when I edited a full CN in less than a day (used to take me weeks, back in 1st year) or the madness of shooting so many different concerts, CN's, and senior skit videos all back to back, then putting it all together before finals were over.
taiko.. not so much. I'm at a crossroads. There's that part of me, that may never go away, the one that wants to be a performer. Not forever, maybe, but at least for a little while longer. So I'm considering whether to make the move to Portland or not and pursue a role with the Portland Taiko team. While there are opportunities around here, such as SF Taiko Dojo and San Jose Taiko, something about PT really clicked with me. I had the best mentors, and even though most members weren't in my age group, I still found ways to connect with them. But my brain is also considering, well, should you really move all the way up to Portland to play taiko? What about the vast opportunities California provides in terms of filmmaking?
So I dunno yet.. I've been researching film schools and classes, trying to decide what to do. Performing really has been important to me throughout my life, but at the same time, having not played taiko for half a year, I'm not sure that passion really exists anymore. I still think it would be great to have that experience of being on a pro taiko team, touring the country and all, but I think I would be perfectly content not doing it too. Then again, who knows what great opportunities may await in Portland.
Well, let's see what happens in the next year! This past year I think I've changed a great deal, and I'm curious to see how much will change in this upcoming year.
Wrote that one year and one day ago.. funny how it was today I decided to look through my posts and find that entry again. I had been thinking about it for the past few days, about what I said in that entry about dreams.. fighting for your dreams, how your dreams today may not be the same 1, 5, 10 years from now. and it so happened that tonight, at 3AM again, I'm revisiting that post. it's kind of scary how that all came together, either purely a strange coincidence or as if "it was written." (stupid Jai Ho stuck in my head, thanks to Arthur putting the song on in the car).
anyway, my dreams of becoming a film editor remain intact. strengthened, if anything. Now that I'm free from the UCLA undergraduate world, I feel like my life has finally begun - I'm free to explore the world away from the college bubble, get out there, and do some real work. All the opportunities I had at school were nice, but now it's time to produce real-world work. And that excites me. I think I've already gone beyond "just a hobby," something I had set out to prove one year ago.. during the last 2 weeks of school I really felt like I could do this at a professional level someday - like when I edited a full CN in less than a day (used to take me weeks, back in 1st year) or the madness of shooting so many different concerts, CN's, and senior skit videos all back to back, then putting it all together before finals were over.
taiko.. not so much. I'm at a crossroads. There's that part of me, that may never go away, the one that wants to be a performer. Not forever, maybe, but at least for a little while longer. So I'm considering whether to make the move to Portland or not and pursue a role with the Portland Taiko team. While there are opportunities around here, such as SF Taiko Dojo and San Jose Taiko, something about PT really clicked with me. I had the best mentors, and even though most members weren't in my age group, I still found ways to connect with them. But my brain is also considering, well, should you really move all the way up to Portland to play taiko? What about the vast opportunities California provides in terms of filmmaking?
So I dunno yet.. I've been researching film schools and classes, trying to decide what to do. Performing really has been important to me throughout my life, but at the same time, having not played taiko for half a year, I'm not sure that passion really exists anymore. I still think it would be great to have that experience of being on a pro taiko team, touring the country and all, but I think I would be perfectly content not doing it too. Then again, who knows what great opportunities may await in Portland.
Well, let's see what happens in the next year! This past year I think I've changed a great deal, and I'm curious to see how much will change in this upcoming year.
I am so happy for you about your growth (mentally and technically) with film editing! :-) Figuring out where to go is a big/hard decision, but I am sure both places will open up opportunities for you. Best luck for everything! Keep me updated please.